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Lost Honour, Betrayed Loyalty (Paperback)

The Memoir of a Waffen-SS Soldier

Military > Frontline Books > Frontline: WWII Military > Memoirs WWII > Battles & Campaigns > Russia & the Eastern Front

By Herbert Maeger
Frontline Books
Pages: 272
Illustrations: 32 black and white illustrations
ISBN: 9781526768858
Published: 6th November 2019
Last Released: 1st September 2021



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This is an unrivalled account of one man's service in the elite Waffen-SS Leibstandarte division, principally on the Eastern Front.

The author, an 18-year old Belgian, was blackmailed into volunteering for the Waffen-SS in 1941 to save his mother from a concentration camp. After enduring the MG harsh training with the Leibstandarte SS Adolf Hitler (considered by some to be a worse experience than the fighting front), Maeger went on to be selected as a frontline driver in Russia. He saw combat at Kharkov and at the legendary battle of Kursk. In 1944 he was transferred out for training as an SS paramedic, but after two months was sent against his will for SS-officer training. Overheard making a defeatist remark, he was sent to the notorious SS penal division Dirlewanger on the Oder front, where he survived the horror of the Halbe pocket.

On 1 May 1945 he was captured by the Russians near the Elbe. He served at the prison camp infirmary as a volunteer which won him the admiration of the Russian female doctor and with her help he gained his early release the same year.

This book offering is a very well presented look into the life of an SS soldier from training to imprisonment. I am left with the opinion that yes the SS performed some extremely terrible crimes both at the front and rear and the reputation they acquired was well earned, but a large part of life was purely down to surviving another day. While this soldier served with the SS my lasting memory of reading the title is that of a man who is always cold and hungry and so fights the war from one meal to the next.

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Maeger was a Belgian national who in 1941 was conscripted into the SS at the age of 18 in order to save his mothers deportation to a concentration camp.

He eventually found himself reporting to the Lichterfelde Barracks in Berlin as a recruit into the famous Liebstandarte SS Adolf Hitler, who performed the function of being Hitlers bodyguard providing security at his offices, residences and at state occasions. As war became imminent, Hitler ordered they be turned into an Infantry Regiment.

Maeger’s experience of his time in barracks somewhat dispels the myth that they were well led Ayran supermen as the conscripts were often the victims of terrific abuse by their instructors, themselves veterans of the peacetime cadre that had joined the division on idealogical grounds as opposed to the conscripts who were instructed which unit they were to join. The training regime was designed to break the conscripts down into fanatic followers of Hitler prepared to sacrifice themselves in the way that the volunteer cadre had done in Poland, France & Russia.

Upon the completion of his training, he was sent of to Russia to endure the pitiless winter of 1941 where he had to work hard to earn the respect of the Officers and men that had been fighting hard since the start of the Barborossa campaign in June.

Welcome respite came in 1942 when the unit were shipped back to France for rest and refitting, but the stay was short as they were once again shipped back off to Russia to endure another punishing winter. As they were departing, Maeger was offered the chance of being a driver which he took and became part of the ‘fighting Tross’ (the company baggage train) who brought up food to the front line and delivered casualties rearward.

From there he went on to take part in the battle of Kharkov, received a wound at Kursk and then with the LSSAH division was moved to Italy to help prop up the collapsing front.

Now a veteran soldier, he was offered the chance to attend SS Officer school but declined out of a preference to go into medicine. After a period of recuperation due to the untreated wound received at Kursk, he began his medical training only to be overheard making a defeatist comment which eventually led him to the infamous SS-Dirlewanger Brigade (a punishment battalion) where he served as a paramedic and anaesthetist in the operating theatres on the rapidly collapsing Eastern front.

He escaped the Halbe pocket and made his way West eventually being captured by Russian forces on 1st May 1945 near the Elbe River and from there went into POW camp, luckily missing selection for transport to the Gulags of Siberia. He saw the rest of his internment out as a volunteer in the Infirmary earning the respect of a Russian doctor who secured his early release.

GD Aufklärung - Neil Barlow

A convincing piece of work by a Waffen SS soldier who was born in Belgium and fought in Hitler's premier fighting unit, chiefly in Russia. Maeger is a talented and largely forthright author, a man who constantly refers to his dual nationality throughout this book... The book is another important title, to learn about the trials and tribulations of the German soldier in WW2, enjoy!
Incidentally, the book is very well illustrated.

Amazon Reviewer

Rather like waiting for a bus, along come three books to the review desk that focus on the SS Leibstandarte Adolf Hitler (LAH).

The three are ‘Peiper’s War’ which details the wartime actions of Jochen Peiper the renowned leader, and the other two are personal memoirs by Werner Kindler (Obedient unto Death) and Herbert Maeger (Lost Honour, Betrayed Loyalty). I read all three concurrently with the intention of checking accounts and hopefully gaining an insight into those events from different perspectives. I therefore, with apologies to each author and the publishers, have combined the reviews as each book is mutually supporting and the added value of all three books is certainly greater than the sum of the parts. I would suggest that anybody seriously interested in knowing more about the LAH should buy all three books.

The biography of Peiper between 1941-44 concentrates on the Eastern Front and the incredible performance of the LAH on the battlefield against overwhelming odds. Their superior training, tactics, equipment and morale consistently outperformed the Soviet Army, which by and large was a poorly trained militia. Casualty reports underline the toe to toe superiority of the LAH and the development of the Panzer Grenadier tactics. Intrinsic to the success of the LAH was its leadership and Peiper emerges as a soldier’s soldier; a man who led by example, who quickly grasped changing situations and formed them to his advantage, who protected his soldiers through his efficient use of them and who in return enjoyed their total loyalty. This was particularly evident in the actions around Kharkov and Kursk in 1943.

Obedient unto Death and Lost Honour, Betrayed Loyalty give the soldiers view and really add value to the Peiper biography. Both of the authors portray the gritty reality of fighting on the Eastern Front and place the war as a matter of the survival of Germany rather than the pursuit of the political objectives of its national Socialist leadership. Sustained by the purported war aims of the Allies and the evidence of Soviet atrocities (which of course were matched by some German elements) the German soldier expected to have to fight to the death as surrender was very unattractive. Both authors deliver a clear narrative of their and the LAH’s exploits and whilst at times (particularly with Kindler) it seems a daily list of battlefield actions and close order fighting, it must be so as that was the intensity of their experience.

All three books are recommended. Read separately they stand as excellent accounts, and read together they are even better.

Michael McCarthy. Battlefield Guide

Michael McCarthy

About Herbert Maeger

Herbert Maeger was born at Hergenrath/Eupen in Belgium on 10 November 1922. After release from Soviet captivity in late 1945 he settled in West Germany in the Rheydt area and began pre-clinical training. He obtained German citizenship on 21 June 1971. He was unable to return to Belgium for decades after the war, having been sentenced to life imprisonment in his absence by a military tribunal at Verviers on 19 February 1947 ‘for having borne arms against Belgium's allies in particular as a member of the Waffen-SS.

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Obedient Unto Death A Panzer-Grenadier of the Leibstandarte-SS Adolf Hitler Reports (Paperback)

Drafted into the SS-Totenkopf in 1939, Werner Kindler served with a motorised unit in Poland before, in May 1941, he was selected for the elite Leibstandarte-SS Adolf Hitler. It was with the Leibstandarte-SS Adolf Hitler that he participated in Operation Barbarossa, the invasion of the Soviet Union from June 1941. Werner’s unit converted to a Panzer Grenadier formation in 1942, and he went on to fight at Kharkov and Kursk on the Eastern Front. Having transferred to the Western Front in 1944, Werner later fought in Belgium and France, in the Ardennes campaign, in Hungary and, finally, in Austria,…

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